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again, split because of lj constraints.

Title: if it is born in flames
Series: Hetalia
Character/Pairing: Greece/Japan
Rating: R
Word count: 11109 words.
Author's note: kink meme. A complicated (yet awesome) prompt involving a historical story of the Great Fire of Smyrna.



*

Honda didn't allow himself to seek out Karpusi too often. If they came across each other by chance, then that was acceptable. He still took meals, and yet he rationed the time he spent with Karpusi, lest someone suspect.

Karpusi was out looking at the sky. The sea breeze teased his hair. He leaned over the deck, his olive skin across the railing.

Honda had been going to fetch Naoto to discuss something with him, but he paused.

"Please be careful to not fall over, Karpusi-san," Honda said.

"I won't. I'm used to boats," he said. "I have good balance..."

"I see," Honda said.

"You must miss your wife and children," Karpusi said conversationally. He turned around so that he was leaning on the side of the ship, and looking at Honda in a searching manner.

"I am afraid I have none," Honda said. "Only my parents, who are getting on in years."

"I see," Karpusi said. "I'm sorry."

But he didn't sound particularly sorry, even a worn social ritual as it was. He sounded almost...relieved? Honda refused to let himself dwell on the minute details.

"No, no...it is something I intend to rectify when I return home," Honda said. "It is...time I get started on such things before I am too old. My mother has been wanting me to get married for years, but I was too busy with work."

He had kept himself busy. Driven himself. Hadn't that been it deep down, a way to keep himself from the inevitable?

Karpusi gave him a sideways glance. "You don't look that old."

"Looks are deceiving, Karpusi-san."

"You can't be older than twenty-eight," Karpusi said. One eye was closed, as if he were looking through a scope at some precious stone.

"I assure you, I'm quite a bit older than that. But that is unimportant. As it is...please come inside, it is time to eat."

Karpusi followed him in.

He sat cross-legged as he ate. He sat down in close proximity. Honda, who was used to barriers and distance felt slightly taken aback. It was a mere difference in culture.

Honda had a feeling that they could tell the entirety of each other's history and still have more to discuss. Talking about this was a good distraction, and distancing method.

This was how they began: hands almost touching, a hesitant threaded thought after the beginning of the world each from two different cultures and lands, each chronicling an unknowable event.

"What story do you want to hear next?" Karpusi said.

"You. Yours," Honda said. He said it shyly. He would usually not be so blunt, verging on rude, but something within him yearned to know more about Karpusi. He couldn't help himself.

"I was a philosophy student... I wasn't raised in Smyrna, but I came here to be with family members before the war started....they didn't survive."

"I'm sorry to bring it up," Honda said.

"No...I don't want to forget them. Even if it hurts."

"What about you?" Karpusi asked.

"What?"

"Your story."

"There is not much to tell about me. I was raised in a respectable household from a good family. We did not originate in shipping; this was my own doing. As you already know, I am an only child. I'm afraid my story isn't particularly interesting."

"No," Karpusi murmured. "You're wrong. I find you very interesting..."

Honda blushed. Just like some schoolgirl. He did not know how to respond. He cleared his throat.

"You know...I was born the day our countries became friends. I've always thought that was significant somehow. I think I finally understand..."

Karpusi's gaze focused on him in a way that made Honda feel naked. Not in the physical sense, but in the sense that every hidden fear, dream or aspiration could be pulled to light by Karpusi.

He cleared his throat. "I have some duties to attend to, you must excuse me..."

He left. It was terribly rude to flee like that, walk out on the way he felt giddy just to hear his voice, the softening of the resolve, of everything inside him.

He found Naoto and asked for details he already knew and sifted through papers that were already sifted.

When he finally returned to his room, it was empty. The giddy feeling had fallen, and now his chest felt weighed down, as if it were filled with stones. He hoped Karpusi would forgive this rudeness.

*

He didn't see him again until the last grips of dusk had receded from the horizon, and the sky had turned dark with velvety night. He hadn't seen Karpusi at dinner, which worried him in both
for Karpusi's health and whether he had taken the abrupt leave poorly.

He was leaning against the rails again, his gaze upwards. Honda came close, wishing to touch him to politely get his attention and not startle him, risking sending him overboard – wishing simply to touch him.

"I didn't see you at dinner," Honda said.

"I was sleeping," Karpusi said.

"I will have the cook make something for you," Honda said.

If Karpusi had been one of his underlings, Honda would have reprimanded him, but he wasn't, and Honda was too filled with relief that Karpusi didn't feel snubbed to give even a gentle reprimand.

"Thank you," Karpusi said. He was distracted, looking up to the stars above. Honda looked too, wondering what had so fascinated him.

He pointed up to each and every one, and named them. Each was steeped in Greek mythology: Pegasus, Orion, Cassiopeia, Pisces. He would guide Honda's vision with his outstretched hand in the dim light, and tell the story of each.

"You know a lot about the stars, Karpusi-san."

"I was studying the past. Mythology, philosophy...things like that."

Karpusi fell quiet. In the dark Honda couldn't see his face, and he was turned away from the lantern on the deck.

"Is something the matter?"

"A memory..." Karpusi said.

Honda waited, but Karpusi did not immediately respond.

Karpusi brushed the back of his hand over Honda's lips. Knuckles, fingers, skin.

"Karpusi-san—"

"I didn't tell you the whole truth...I was part of the army...."

He looked out to the sea. Waves splish-sploshed against the hull. Reassuring thoughts came to mind: It is understandable, you must have been through much. He didn't say any of them.

Karpusi continued on, in his languid voice.

"We marched and burned the cities and towns as we went. Men I'd known for most of my life, friends I'd played with as a child I saw them kill and rape and then burn everything beyond them. I never raped anyone, though..."

Karpusi gripped the railing, hard. Honda didn't know what to say to this. Perhaps Karpusi only wanted someone to listen, wherein his words would be extraneous, unwarranted. As it was, there was little he say that would be consoling in the face of the horrors Karpusi had seen.

"I detest the Turks....But it all seemed so distant when I was studying. The rape of the Sabines, the wars...it was nothing like seeing someone I grew up with raping a Turkish girl, and then go back to the same old jokester I'd always known by dinner. I couldn't do anything...I froze up and just watched as he raped her. His face was so monstrous, and she kept crying and crying....she killed herself afterwards....Ares is a cruel god to follow. I stayed only so I could see Smyrna that first time. I would have deserted much earlier, otherwise... All that beauty is gone now, though...."

"Karpusi-san...."

Karpusi turned, and moved so quickly, Honda barely processed what was happening. A blink, and Karpusi was touching him. His hands gripped Honda's cheeks and he pulled him close until their lips met. It was a desperate kiss, as if in that moment, Karpusi needed touch, and comfort the way drowning men need air. It was sensual, like nothing Honda had ever felt before. His mind was swimming, and all the desire looping inside him, warm and light. When he came up for air, Karpusi just stayed there, only a breath away, his hands cradling Honda's face.

For a span of time neither said anything, and there was just the sound of the waves on the hull, the rocking, and their breathing.

"I guess I should apologize, but I can't...I've wanted to do that for a while," Karupusi said.

Honda was still trying to catch his breath. Karpusi's hands were rough against his cheeks. He slowly brought his hands to cover Karpusi's, and nuzzled into the touch.

"You know...It wasn't a mistake; I didn't oversleep," he said. "I was a stowaway...I did this because I wanted to."

"You've been through so much, Karpusi-san. I'm very sorry for this," Honda began. It sounded so insignificant compared to what Karpusi had been through.

"No...I wanted to be where you were. You've been watching me...and I felt it, a connection between us. I owe you my life, remember?"

Honda's breath caught. He wasn't in love with Karpusi, he reminded himself. He was in passion. Karpusi was handsome, and Honda had been starving for the feel of a man. Love didn't blossom instantaneously. This was pure out and out, foolish lust. A schoolboy's infatuation.

That was all.

And yet, one last fling, one last time in the strong arms of a man, relishing in giving up the power and becoming the passive partner.

"I barely know you," he whispered.

And yet every part of him craved Karpusi. He didn't just crave to bed Karpusi, he craved to be known by him in the deepest sense. Whenever Karpusi looked at him, it felt like layer after layer of lies was being stripped away.

"You were willing to put everything on the line...for us...for me. I don't need to know more than that," Karpusi said. He brought his hand to his mouth and kissed the knuckles, the back of his hand, his palm and wrist. Unlike the desperation of the first kiss, these were gentle, like a fallen leaf brushing against his skin. The usual feeling of drawing back from touch was still there, and yet it was drowned out by how good the touches felt, by how much he wanted them.

"You should....It's too open here, someone might see. You should come to somewhere more secluded," Honda said with far more calmness than he actually felt. "...like my quarters."

They returned to his quarters where they had told the beginning of the world from two lands, where they had begun between the stories that meshed together. Two cultures, two people, two.

He closed and locked the door behind him. Karpusi leaned down and their mouths met again in a searing heat. This time it was closer, with Karpusi's body pressed directly against his own. He slipped his hands under Karpusi's shirt, feeling the strength of him, his fingers passing over scars rough beneath his skin and sinew and muscle. He was firm and hard and lean, and everything that Honda had been starving for.

Karpusi pulled back from the kiss and wove his fingers thorough Honda's hair. "It's so dark..." Karpusi murmured. "Like ink....or night..."

Honda had never though his hair noteworthy before. A bowl cut of dark, straight black hair. It wasn't even that soft, more sleek and thick than fine.

Truth be told, there wasn't much Honda considered noteworthy about himself in that respect. He was a hard worker, he was dedicated and loyal. He did not consider himself handsome, nor hideous. Looks faded, they were a finite treasure.

But Karpusi found him appealing, he knew. His thin, unnoteworthy body had somehow captured Karpusi's eye.

He closed his eyes and let Karpusi guide him. Karpusi never assumed. Even his touches were another way of gently asking for Honda's approval. Honda accepted him, accepted the touch he had so often avoided, and whatever fate he was damning them to by taking this chance.

*

Karpusi was talkative after sex. It would take some time to get there, however. He would nap almost immediately, barely remembering to roll off. But when he woke, he was full of more stories to tell. Often their foreplay was littered with these stories, which Karpusi would tell to him in-between slow, unhurried kisses.

Karpusi whispered about Greek gods: Zeus in all his lasciviousness, his thousands of affairs and children; Hera, his jealous and violent wife, the goddess of families and wives, the home, and every other Olympian in loving detail. He told of the wisdom of Plato, of the world of illusion, the Republic, the last days of Socrates. He told of winged horses, of tragic, torrid love affairs in the same sleepy, undramatized monotone. He'd trace over Honda's chest as he did. The warmth of his breath cascading over his skin. His kisses left faint moisture, and bruises in their wake. Little purple love marks left just under his uniform, where no one else could see.

If Honda had hoped that the stories would allow for closeness without actual intimacy, he was sorely mistaken. Each new myth was told so lovingly that it felt like an endearment from Karpusi's lips.

And then he'd speak of fire. The kind of fire that devoured his house, his beloved books and all the life he had known before this. The fire of mythical birds who burnt themselves and rose from the ashes.

Feathers of flames. A song to the sun god, a bird claimed by many nations. The name it was most known by, however, was Greek.

He spoke of rape: Turkish men dragging women off after Smyrna was taken, the march of the Greek army, and the burned places left behind them, the gods taking their lovers in the forms of swans or bulls, and showers of gold. He told these stories simultaneously, twisted together, often lapsing into each other, until the Turks seemed indiscernible from the monsters the heros killed. The Greek Army was another face, Janus with his two faces. Karpusi too, seemed unable to tell them apart. To him, the Turks all were Gorgons and with secret snake heads hidden under turbans and masks, and yet the Greek Army which he had been a part of also had a secret, silvered tongue.

He began to speak of Smyrna. He talked of it as one would a lover. His face lit up as he spoke of its beauties. It had once been a proud city in ancient times, and had been destroyed, only to be rebuilt again. He spoke of the scent of oleander trees, of the taste of almonds and fruit – there was always fruit to be had of many kinds, so much that everyone subsisted on fruit, even the poorest. He recalled the ripe figs and dates, the wisteria growing, by where he lived where he often slept in the shade. He had only lived there a short time, and yet it felt more at home than the busy streets of Athens or Piraeus ever had.

A land which had many, many, many generations ago, been a city of amazons and Greek heroes.

It was a colorful place, with so many cultures and dress intermixed. He could wander for days simply watching life go by. The Egyptians, the Jews, the Levantines, the Armenians, the Greeks the Turks, all their differences woven together in colorful threads.

When in season, rose petals were gathered, and the scent was rich in the air. Rose syrup was in the pasties of the rich, the cultured, the Levantine.

Smyrna had been the jewel of Anatolia, and now it was ashes and rubble. He grieved for the city, and what had become of it like one would a lover.

Here they were, in some dark corner where someone could come in at any moment. Like teenagers. The lack of decorum, of propriety, the sheer dirtiness and forbiddenness of it only made it sweeter. Above, Honda could only wonder what fate would befall him when he returned, having exchanged the precious cargo worth thousands for the lives of Greeks and Armenians.

Here, it was nothing but the act itself, nothing but the stories Karpusi wove for him. It was comfort to be stripped down so bare, where the lies he had built for himself and called a life were not there to haunt him.

They kept their polite distance in the day. Occasional talks should they come across each other. Shared meals in the way of a polite host to a guest. The way Karpusi said his name in itself was like a confession.

*

He began to learn the language.

It started with small exchanges. It started playfully, as Karpusi whispered glóssa as he licked

"What does that mean?" Honda asked.

Karpusi stuck out his tongue.

"Yours?"

"Ah....shita.

"Ahshita?"

"No, no. Simply shita. Aishita is 'day'."

Karpusi came close and simply watched him with such an affectionate look. Honda felt his stomach lurch at the constant thought, the possibility that this could end – that they would go their separate ways.

And yet time, with all its betrayals, only brought them closer to the end.

*

The Mediterranean and its clear, pristine waters was long gone. They had sailed past ancient cities, and now neared closer and closer to his homeland.

Everything was uncertain now. Honda was so tense he felt as if he would snap in two. It was only around Karpusi that he could relax.

"You've been unhappy lately..." Karpusi said. He brushed his hand over Honda's forehead. He gave him that look, the gentle, tender glance that Honda felt himself confessing to, opening up to despite his reserve.

"It's merely affairs of my post that is bothering me. Please don't worry on my account."

"Is it because of the cargo?" Karpusi asked.

"That and many other things," Honda said.

"...Is it me?" Karpusi said.

Honda tried to find the right lie of decorum to fit, and yet Karpusi's gaze was so deep that he couldn't. He sighed.

"Partly," he admitted.

"We'll run away..." Karpusi said. "To somewhere they'll never find us."

He held Honda's face in his hands. A gentle caress. His hands were coarse against his cheeks. Hands that spoke of memories of bloodshed, of Greek Fire and guns.

Karpusi called it 'fire from heaven.'

"Remember the phoenix...? We'll rise from the ashes."

"What are you saying, Karpusi?"

"I'm saying we can be together," he said.

He could leave his life behind. He could be happy. He could let the lies fall away, cut ropes to the wood floor.

It was crazy.

"This is absurd," Honda protested. "We can't just...leave."

He'd felt more alive in this short time with Karpusi than he could ever remember. And yet, to give everything up for love was a foolish notion only the young would follow. He was hardly young. What if Karpusi tired of him? What would he have then? There was no solidity in this plan. No promise of a socially accepted family to return to, of the honor that had bound his every movement since birth. He would be broken from the rigid codes, free to the wind, where anything could happen.

It was terrifying and thrilling all at once.

"I...I have a family," Honda said. "I have a job, I have duties–"

"I love you," Karpusi said.

"People do foolish things for love," Honda said, his voice veering towards desperation. "I can't just throw all this away–"

"And what will you do then?"

What would he do when he explained to his superiors that he had thrown away their precious cargo? When he couldn't go through with marrying some nice girl to fulfill his filial duty? Just the thought made him sick to his stomach with anxiety.

"I don't know. I...will deal. It is my lot."

"It doesn't have to be," Karpusi said. "There's a Greek myth. It says that people used to have four arms, four legs, two heads. But the gods broke them apart. Now people spend their lives looking for that other part of themselves."

Karpusi was a dreamer. That's why he felt. Someone who was stuck in the past.

And yet, Honda craved dreams. He craved an escape. He lusted after foolishness and disorder. Hadn't it always been like this? Even as his family craved isolation, he was looking for the myths of other lands to sustain him.

"There's something like that where I come from. A story about red string," Honda said softly. "But leaving things up to fate...it's foolishness, pure foolishness."

Karpusi embraced him from behind. He kissed his back.

His body betrayed his logic, his cynicism. Was this the inevitability of the fate he denied? He thought about the life he'd live when he reached his homeland. The marriage he would come into with clipped sentences. The poor woman he'd treat politely, yet have no feelings for. The children he'd look on with distance, and a sense of disconnection. As if he should feel fulfillment, and pride, yet only felt a sense of emptiness.

He wanted dreams. And yet....

"We can't just live on myths, Karpusi-san."

"The world doesn't have to be so harsh. You don't just have to submit; there's a choice."

A choice. He felt Karpusi's lips against him. The scent, the feel and heat of him was clouding his judgment.

"I will... I will go with you, Karpusi-san... If you will have me."

"Of course I'll have you," Karpusi said. "I've been waiting for you all this time, I just didn't realize it until I met you."

Karpusi was prone to saying such broad, romantic things. Honda felt his face heat, cynicism curling in his veins. And yet, he knew Karpusi believed this, that they had been meant to come across each other that day, that their lives were inexorably linked.

When Karpusi put it with such passion, Honda couldn't help but believe it too.

*

Honda wasted little time in putting the plan to action. They would not be able to take much more than the clothes on their backs, but he could at the very least sneak away some money to sustain them a little while. Not as much as he would have liked, however. He felt tense as he gave orders, and played the part of the good son, the good captain. It felt as if he had shed his skin, and now wore the husk of what he once was over himself, as a mask.

Finally the day came. Karpusi was not the only accomplice to this, as he needed someone he trusted, someone within the men who would take his duties when he was gone. Naoto was who he chose to be his partner in this charade. He had not become his second-in-command for nothing.
.
When the night had grown dark, and most of the men had gone to sleep, except for the bare bones night watch, he brought forth the plan into action. Karpusi sat on the bed. He had convinced Honda to let him stay, not out of curiosity, but concern.



He had chosen Naoto as his second-in-command not only for his dutiful, hardworking nature, or his discreetness. Naoto shared the same proclivities as himself. Unlike Honda, Naoto had done the acceptable thing and married, had children and kept his excursions discreet. They never spoke of this, but there was a mutual knowledge, an understanding between them.

Honda brought out his sword and unsheathed it. Honda held the sword up. If he focused, he could see a blurry reflection in the blade. It was ceremonial, something he had never used and kept only on his father's insistence, to infuse in him the memories of all the ancestors past, and perhaps, remind him of what land he paid his loyalty to, lest he become too westernized.

"You will explain to my family?" Honda said. "And the company? They will understand that I have...paid my dues?"

"Yes," Naoto said. "I will tell them."

Karpusi rose, surprisingly fast, given his usual languid nature. He wrested the blade from him with such ease, as if he were taking a stick from a young child. He drew it across his arm, a deep gash. Scarlet blood flowed free from the wound, dripping down to the floor.

"I didn't want you hurting yourself..." Karpusi said.

Honda could only stare at the wounds, at Karpusi there, holding the bloody sword. He had hated violence, Honda knew. Karpusi had told him the living nightmare that had been the war for him. And yet, he took this calmly. He had read the situation without a word of explanation given to him. Or perhaps he had studied it in his university, somewhere between the myths of his ancestors.

"Where should I put the blood?" Karpusi asked. Honda pointed to his stomach, and Karpusi rubbed his wounded arm across, impervious to the pain.

"There needs to be some across the neck as well," Naoto said.

Before Honda could stop him, he cut his other arm. He spread the blood around Honda's neck, and Honda felt it, warm and sticky against him. His cheeks were spattered with drops of blood. Karpusi's blood, given so he wouldn't be hurt. There was only the faintest change in his expression to hint at the pain, made even worse by the friction against his clothing.

Karpusi stared at his bloodied hands and arms, his face becoming distant. It must have brought back some memory of the fire, or his time in the war.

Honda cupped his cheeks like Karpusi had first done to him, but more hesitantly. He was aware of Naoto's presence, and yet he ignored it. Their foreheads brushed together as they stayed for that moment, bloodied and

"We should get you cleaned up," he murmured. "I don't want you fainting from bloodloss."

A gash this deep would leave scars, but Karpusi already had many scars.

"I've had worse wounds," Karpusi said. But he complied as Honda ripped his shirt and made a makeshift tourniquet.

Honda turned to Naoto, feeling even a little abashed by this display. "Thank you for everything. I apologize for my cowardice."

Was it wistfulness, even regret he saw in Naoto's eyes? He couldn't quite tell.

"I will take care of your family and your ship," Naoto said.

"Thank you," Honda said again.

"Live for me," Naoto said, so quietly Honda almost didn't hear him. But he did catch it, above the waves, and the sounds of the ship.

"I will," Honda said.

Phase two had begun.

*

The waves stirred at night. There was no moon. Honda had recently reported a lifeboat as 'lost'. There was two, and Naoto promised to get another one as soon as possible, so Honda did not allow himself much guilt. He'd tied it off a small buoy.

They sunk beneath the waves like a pair of lovers drowning together. Two lover's suicide between them, their hands clasped as they went under.

He worried that the bandages would get infected, even if he didn't have time to worry.


They climbed up to the lifeboat, paddling away as quietly as they could towards shore. They could have gotten lost in that night, alone with only the inky blackness and each other. They could have died for real, for that was a possibility traveling something as mercurial as the sea.

But oh, they were free. No chains, no lies. Just each other.

Karpusi's hand would seek out his whenever the panic rose, instinctively finding and comforting him.

And despite it all, through the long, sleepless night, they found shore.

*

In the first parts of the plan, Honda had managed to get a few of his personal things, which could be sold, and a small remainder of money. Just enough to not be noticed. With this, they'd buy a new life. It was off the coast of Jakarta, where they would soon stop for supplies, that they snuck out and into the city.

Naoto would soon be informing the men about what had happened. He would have surely told them that Honda had requested to be buried at sea. The blood, the torn clothes would be proof enough. The method of death would be too gruesome for all of the men, and by then a lot of the blood would have been cleaned.

If they wondered what had happened to the stowaway, they would keep quiet. The official story was that he had been released at Jakarta shortly before the captain's demise.

As it was, all they could do was bide their time. With their captain dead, the sailors would be in mourning, and not come into port except for the very needed supplies. Honda felt quite certain of this. Still, they'd kept a low profile. The ship he had boarded passes to left in three days.

They could not spend it sightseeing, lest they be spotted. As of yet, they had a room in an inn, and this is where they spent most of their time. Karpusi seemed perfectly fine with spending all day in bed. He often fell asleep on their too-small bed with his arm draped over Honda. It was too hot for such close contact, but Karpusi seemed impervious to the heat.

Honda sat on the edge of the bed, and held up Karpusi's arms up so he could inspect them. Karpusi's arms were wrapped in thick bandages where he had slashed himself, and stained red and brown with dried blood. Honda unraveled the bandages and wrapped them up tightly again with the salve he had managed to smuggle in.

He was not sure of its effectiveness, but it was a chance he had to take. Karpusi had already lost enough, and was lucky enough to have gone through the war without losing his limbs. He didn't want to have him go this far only to lose them to gangrene.

There was a fresh fruit he had ordered, alongside their rationed food from the inn.

"Are you hungry, or has the heat gotten to you?" Honda asked.

"I can take the heat," Karpusi said. "I was raised in it...hot summers...."

"Yes, I remember," Honda said.

He trailed off, looking to the wall, lost in memory. What those memories were, Honda could only imagine. Steep and craggy cliffs that framed coves with beautiful beaches, the salt taste of the sea, and perhaps the people he had loved before Honda.

Honda fetched the fruit and brought it to him.

Karpusi looked up, sleepy, yet playful. "Feed it to me?"

Honda put a sliver of fruit to his lips, and Karpusi licked his fingertips as he ate. Then he leaned up, for apparently his arms didn't hurt so much that he couldn't use them after all, and kissed him.
The kiss was sweet, tasting of sweetness of the fruit itself, and the added sweetness of Karpusi's lips. He licked the droplets that oozed down Karpusi's neck, all the way to his collarbone.

When they had finished the ration, he climbed up, careful of Karpusi's arms, which were still very tender, and laid himself down on top of him, his head against Karpusi's chest.

"I've always wanted to see Australia," Karpusi said. "Where do you want to go?"

Home. But he didn't have that any longer. This would have to be his home. Karpusi would have to be his home.

"I'm not sure. I will have to think about it," Honda said.

"What about other islands? Could we go to Hokkaido, or other cities?" Karpusi said, as if innately sensing the growing homesickness. "I've always wanted to see Japan, the rest of the Orient..."

He felt it would never be the same. Hadn't he betrayed his family for love? He was a fraud, a bad son, a failure. And yet, one last sight of his land, a goodbye, and to introduce Karpusi to it... That did not seem such a betrayal.

"Perhaps a visit...I do not know if we could manage to stay," Honda said.

"Would you want to return to Greece?"

"There's a lot of islands...we could visit them without ever seeing the mainlands, if you wanted to go there," he said. "We'll have to pick new names...."

"Yes, I suppose so," Honda sighed.

Karpusi moved closer. He stroked Honda's cheeks with his war-scarred hands. His gaze was deep, and so adoring. No one had ever looked at Honda in that intense way Karpusi did.

"Name me," he said.

"What's your favorite myth? That is my choice."

"But I want you to choose," he pressed on. Their hands were pressed against each other. Karpusi's was much larger than his.

"I enjoyed the pillars of Hercules when you told me then," Honda said.

"Herakles it is," he said. "Herakles Karpusi."

"It's fitting," Honda said. He smiled, faint as he tried on the new name as if it were a loose fitting robe made of silk.

"Can I name you?" He looked on, waiting for Honda's response.

"It would only be fair, considering," Honda said.

"But I want you to want me to name you," Herakles said.

"Yes. I want you to name me," Honda said simply. He closed his hand so that it entwined with Herakles'.

"You said the Chrysanthemum was the national flower of Japan, right...? Weren't they also a symbol of male love?"

"Yes..." Honda's cheeks were a little hot. Herakles could be very frank sometimes.

"What is the word in Japanese for Chrysanthemum?" Herakles asked.

"Kiku," Honda replied.

He pointed to Honda, and proclaimed with a sleepy smile Kiku.

So it was, his death and rebirth. Cloaked in flames he became something, someone new. Did he have regrets? Yes, but Kiku was prone to regretting every minor fault and wrongdoing. He couldn't go a day without beating himself up for something insignificant.

But despite the ache in his chest, a part of him was happy. He was free.

As they drifted off to sleep in a cheap inn in Jakarta, they held each other tight. Their hands stayed entwined. In his sleepy daze, Kiku thought he could almost see traces of knotted red thread tangled between their fingers.

Kiku traced the white scars on Herakles' arms. Blood flowing down Herakles' arms like scarlet thread, like the cleaving of two connected bodies, yearning to be together again.

The first smoke rising, the first sight of him with dazed green eyes looking up that so changed everything. The taste of salt, of first touches, first kisses official and unofficial.

The horrors of past and present, myth and moment all woven together.

The weight of his choice.

Herakles watched him, questioning.

"What is it?"

"I am remembering," Kiku said.




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Date: 2010-08-14 02:58 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hikari-m.livejournal.com
This was great and wonderfully written, (as always)! ♥
I'm so glad you ended up filling that prompt! :)

I think the only thing wrong that I noticed was there were some spelling/grammar errors here and there, but otherwise it was very well written imo?

are you going to put this one on FFN? I would really love to add it to the Japan C2 (http://www.fanfiction.net/community/Land_Of_The_Rising_Sun/84106/) that I made.

I would quote my favorite parts too haha, but if I did that we'd be here all day (as with most of your writing!) ♥ imo anyway all of your latest Giripan fics have been fabulous, (including many of your other latest Hetalia fics, not just the Giripan fics, too~) and I can't wait to read what other Hetalia fic you have in store! :)

Date: 2010-08-14 04:30 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] measuringlife.livejournal.com
The OP pointed out the typos and I fixed them :D So this version should be typo-free now...

Uh, I guess if you really want? Probably not immediately as coding it will take some time considering the length. I sort of don't want to look at or deal with this fic because we've spent too much time together XD

Haha, thank you...I think I'm going to switch the pairing queue from Greece/Japan after maybe 3-4 more fills. To spice things up, you know.

Date: 2010-08-18 09:30 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hikari-m.livejournal.com
Ah, I noticed ^^ and yeah, otherwise it was fine and I loved this story!~ ♥ ♥ ♥

haha, that's fine of course if it takes you time? but yes I would love to add it to the C2 if you didn't mind uploading it on FFN, but you don't have to of course. heh, but your research sure paid off, this fill was lovely. ^^

ooh, interesting, I'm looking forward to reading any other pairs you attempt! ♥ (especially if they're Japan pairs, heh!) :)
(still love all your Giripan works too) ♥

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